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Happy's Obsession
or what I do between bouts of Real Life
You know, I'm feeling old. I went to post in my LJ, and realized it had been almost 2 weeks since my last post - which was just a meme. And then realized that I was going to post about a personal health concern... which is what old people do, right? Talk about their health with too much detail, bore everyone to tears...

So I'll leave this as a friendly hello, and hope that I can get back into my cyberlife sometime soon. Although, with work, and other RL issues...

15 Voices or Sing to Me
shingalingp From: shingalingp Date: May 19th, 2005 03:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
Happy, I was wondering why I hadn't seen you on lj especially when you'd post almost every day.. I hope things are OK for you with work and RL.. You sound somewhat down, so take care..debra
skittles From: skittles Date: May 19th, 2005 05:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
That does'nt make you old, only sharing what is going on in RL. I'm doing the same thing in fact. So how is everything going? It doesn't bore me to tears, I'd really like to know.
qafhappy From: qafhappy Date: May 19th, 2005 06:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well... the doctor hasn't called me in for a sooner appt - in fact, she went on vacation, so I have to see another doctor 2 days later.

But... my left foot has been swelling (the right, too, a little) for the last week or so. And when I looked up causes of lower-extremity edema... none of them were good.

I kind of feel like I'm on the way out of here.

And that scares me.
skittles From: skittles Date: May 19th, 2005 07:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
Have they given you any idea of what could possibly be going on?

It's understandable that your scared. I would be too. And I know keeping a positive attitude about things is really really hard in times like this but thats what you have to do. Just keep telling yourself that no matter what is going on, you can beat it.
qafhappy From: qafhappy Date: May 19th, 2005 08:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
I usually have a very positive outlook - but this is the first time I'm scared.

Probably because I don't know what's going on.

It's kind of like that time when you go from being a kid/teen, and thinking you're invincible, to knowing that you could actually not survive something. When wearing seatbelts isn't something you have to force yourself to do anymore, but something you have to do to be able to travel in a car.

I guess this is the first time I've potentially dealt with my own mortality, had things physically going wrong that are beyond my control.

*hugs self*
skittles From: skittles Date: May 19th, 2005 08:34 pm (UTC) (Link)
I understand what you're saying. :( Sometimes I wonder if we get thrown obstacles like this specifically for the reason of realizing our own mortality, sort of like a fear job almost.

I'm sorry I can't do anything to help you feel better though, or at least to worry a little less. If there is anything I can do just let me know though.
qafhappy From: qafhappy Date: May 19th, 2005 08:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks for being here.
skittles From: skittles Date: May 19th, 2005 08:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
What are friends for? Like I said though, I just wish I could do more.
solitudinarian From: solitudinarian Date: May 19th, 2005 07:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
I was just thinking today how I hadn't heard from you in a while and was already considering making a "Anybody know how Happy is doing?" -post...

qafhappy From: qafhappy Date: May 19th, 2005 07:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
punkdoc From: punkdoc Date: May 19th, 2005 10:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
We want to hear about your personal health concerns however much you need to talk about them (although I also understand not wanting to discuss things at times). I wish I could say something to make you feel better, but I know what you most need is to get more information about your health (doctor's appt is in 2 days, right?)
qafhappy From: qafhappy Date: May 19th, 2005 10:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
No, it got moved to next Wednesday. But I'm taking that as a positive, since they would have gotten me in sooner if there was a problem.

But now my feet are swelling...
punkdoc From: punkdoc Date: May 19th, 2005 10:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
I wonder if you could call, explain you've got new symptoms that are stressing you out, and maybe they could have the doctor call you? Have they checked your TSH? Edema can occur with either hyper or hypothyroidism. I know as a medical person, your mind is always going to go the worst case scenario, but it could be something relatively benign or even unrelated.
qafhappy From: qafhappy Date: May 19th, 2005 11:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm hoping for the hypothyroidism, myself.

And I did call - they said I could see my own doctor on May 31, or get into another (who I respect, also) on Wed. So I chose the earlier appointment.
devilayu From: devilayu Date: May 20th, 2005 03:45 am (UTC) (Link)
Hello to you, too! I hope the health thing that you're talking about turns out ok~
15 Voices or Sing to Me