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) I've been having an odd pain in my foot, intermittently, for… - Happy's Obsession
or what I do between bouts of Real Life
I've been having an odd pain in my foot, intermittently, for about... 5 weeks now. At first, it was steady, then it left, then it has been around at least 50% of the time. It kind of feels like I'm being stung by a wasp, but there is no insect biting me.

Yesterday, I noticed that it hurt a bit (in the same place) when I walked, but only for about 30 seconds. Then it seemed to "work out." But I still have the intermittent discomfort.

And start thinking...

... maybe it is thyroid cancer, maybe it has metastasized to my bones, maybe I need to get my foot cut off, too, but if I wait, soon it will be my whole leg, but I don't want to know...

Yeah. I may be outwardly calm - but obviously, I'm freaking out on the inside.

Tuesday better get here soon. But it should stay away forever. I'm torn. I want this over with... yet I don't want it at all. But I have to do it. Unless I want to go against all medical advice... which would be stupid.

I just want this over with.
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smartwomn1 From: smartwomn1 Date: August 1st, 2005 03:25 am (UTC) (Link)
Or a brain tumor is causing the foot pain.
You know that doctors laugh at the fact we jump out to the absloutely most far-fetched possible combination of terrible things combining in here-to-fore unknown ways to cause our problems.

Which doesn't make it not true.

I'm trying to deal with personal crap that makes this show going away EVEN bigger. (How could it get bigger/worse?)

You're dealing with MUCH MORE SERIOUS crap that makes the show ending even worse (more tied up with other problems). This is a little convaluted, but squint while you read this and it might make more sense.
qafhappy From: qafhappy Date: August 1st, 2005 03:37 am (UTC) (Link)
I know what you mean. I've used this show for both friendship and escape, and it's sad to think of it ending. And everything ending.
mi_nion From: mi_nion Date: August 1st, 2005 03:59 am (UTC) (Link)
No wonder we love this show. We are all such drama queens. Sounds like you pulled a muscle in your foot, but give yourself piedce of mind and ask your doctors.
I'd be lying if I said I haven't had my own Lifetime movie moments.
It'll be over soon, Happy.
Hang in there babe.
qafhappy From: qafhappy Date: August 1st, 2005 06:36 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks for helping to keep me grounded. I'm pretty much a helium balloon right now.
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